|At the moment I'm kind of depressed.|
I'm trying to play the Firth of Fifth piano solo, not the chords, just the notes, and I'm really struggling. I can play the first ten or so notes and then it gets so unfathomably tough that I'm just left guessing at what to do. So, I gave up on it out of annoyance.
This is exactly how I felt when I tried to do the Cinema Show solo last year. I can do the slow part fine, but starting from the complex part where he goes from end of the keyboard to the other, I can't even focus on one note he plays, so I gave up on that too. This is so unfair. I would love to be able to play a solo, but it's almost impossible.
It's just totally killing me with intense sadness that I'm a great keyboardist but I can't play a simple Banks solo. I mean, if he can do it with such ease, why can't I? There are hundreds of YouTubers that can play FOF too and when people ask them how they do it they always say it's simple.
If I can't play at least one Banks solo in full, I'm nothing, I can't call myself a good keyboardist when he has set the bar so high. I'm sick of making my own solos, I've made about twenty solos and they're lame and easy to play, Banks would chuckle if I showed them to him. I don't want to give up the keyboards but knowing that I'm so far below his level is extremely disheartening, I can't even watch him play anymore, it makes me jealous
Also, it is EXTREMELY hot tonight in Bournemouth, roughly 35 celcius. I'm at the computer in my undies, this is one of the stickiest, most sweltering nights I've ever experienced in England, and I just feel really "under the weather". Perhaps tomorrow it will be nice and mild, then I'll feel more competent.